Sometimes, I'm tired of thinking.
I'd be sitting on a chair, with a thoughtful look on my face – yet sweating profusely in my mind. (If there was an Olympics for mind-racing, you know I wouldn't leave without that golden medal.)
The reason for all that effort? A dozen of questions like "What if I do..." that launch my mind into dreamy explorations – or borderline exhaustion.
Because, wow, there are so many possibilities! So many options to shape the day you have right now. (And obviously, I have to get it right, because "all we have is today!")
If it's about how to spend time now, I could read, or paint, or watch my favourite reality TV, or knit.
If it's about business and what I could do next, then I could write a story, assess my strategy, brainstorm next steps, or come up with a product.
So I sit down and ponder.
(You get the gist: Few hours later, I feel low that I didn't manage to do one thing. To make a decision. To commit. To settle down wholeheartedly on doing that one thing.)
For the lack of better phrasing – decisions are BLOODY HARD.
With the uplifting narrative of "you can do everything" and "the world is your oyster", how could you ever choose what to do? My mind is like a multiverse observer: Running different scenarios, figuring out how to do all of it, and yet wasting time on thinking rather than moving on with doing.
("Just do it" is my biggest pet peeve though.)
The thing is, do these decisions even justify the amount of time and effort that we dispense? If I decide on reading now and watching something later, would my day go awry? Absolutely not.
If I decide on writing content today and planning my offer tomorrow, would I fail my goals? Not really. It might delay whether I make money off that offer by a day or two. It's a matter of priorities and energy you have right now.
Whatever you do today is both a stepping stone to your long-term goals AND yet nothing that matters too much if you get it wrong. (There's no perfect decision that needs that much thinking on what to do.)
I ask myself: "What could I do right now?" – and my mind sighs in relief. Because checking my wants and constraints in respect to "right now" is easy, way easier than strategising on how to nail my day.
(And so I am here, back with my thoughts-in-writing, after a long break, just in time before my lunch. I'll see where the day takes me next.)
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